New York smells like strawberries growing in middle of a fruits’ garden. This smell gets as big as one can imagine, it invades one’s thoughts and suddenly I am lost. I am really lost. I must take the train number 2 to Flatbush, then the B6 bus and finally I have to walk two streets to my left to find myself in the right place.
While I get lost I think about intellectual challenges and how I am planning to go to my city in one week. Just one week. Hold on Atenea. Who’s idea was to get lost in New York?
While I get lost I think about sending postcards to my friends. One postcard to Mexico, two to India, some to Latin America, few to Europe. I think postcards fly above countries, as birds do. Postcards= Birds. Birds= Friends. Where are my friends? They seem to be lost as well. Lost in Delhi (once I was lost there), lost in Wien, lost in Berlin, lost in Mauritius, lost in Navarra. Lost everywhere.
While I get lost I think about MUWCI and how much it taught me, the teachers, the food, the rocks in my way to school, the snakes in the pool, the way things work there. The moments give the impression of being permanent on me. I do not want to forget and my memories little by little start falling apart.
While I get lost I think about Doris Lessing talking in the Nobel Lecture. African kids reading American short stories. Indian kids learning English from a Mexican. Mexican kids being taught Nahuatl from a Spanish speaker. The world sometimes loses logic. So do I.
While I get lost I feel sorry about forgetting my M and M’s all over the kitchen. I think about Sohail being yelled and Dhruv laughing happily. I remember my sisters and how far they are. Far does not refer to distance.
I am lost and it is not because I missed the train number 2.
